I taste blood

I was putting off going to the dentist for a couple of months now that when I finally did, I was willing to do whatever the dentist tells me. Long story short, I'm here in m room with a numb cotton-filled mouth hoping that when the numbness goes away my dad will be back here with the pain medication.

This is the first time after so many years that I got a tooth extracted. I can't believe I didn't cry before. It was sooooo painful! Like my whole jaw is going to be pulled out.

Now they say that oral surgery for impacted teeth is so much more painful. I have 2. Double the fun!

It's a blue day! :)

The first themed day at the office c/o Noey. :)

I'm so sick

I've read somewhere that there is only one nerve that controls anger or sadness. So if you're feeling sad, the best cure would be anger because anger going through this nerve will prevent the feeling of sadness going through it. So if you're sad, get angry! Not angry? Listen to these songs!

Flyleaf is one of the rare bands whose female vocalist can do screams that I'm not sure how it is called exactly. Here's the lyrics of one of my favorite songs from them.

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I will break into your thoughts
With what's written on my heart
I will break, break

I'm so sick,
Infected with where I live
Let me live without this
Empty bliss,
Selfishness
I'm so sick
I'm so sick

If you want more of this
We can push out, sell out, die out
So you'll shut up
And stay sleeping
With my screaming in your itching ears

I'm so sick,
Infected with where I live
Let me live without this
Empty bliss,
Selfishness
I'm so sick
I'm so sick

Hear it, I'm screaming it
You're heeding to it now

Hear it! I'm screaming it!
You tremble at this sound

You sink into my clothes
And this invasion
Makes me feel
Worthless, hopeless, sick

I'm so sick,
Infected with where I live
Let me live without this
Empty bliss,
Selfishness
I'm so sick
I'm so sick

I'm so sick
Infected with where I live
Let me live without this
Empty bliss, selfishness
I'm so
I'm so sick
I'm so
I'm so sick

Christmas Party Pictures

Attended two Christmas parties last Saturday. Weeee~! I'll put up pictures later. XD

"Please bless my hair also!"

I've been feeling so ugly lately. I think I want to change my hair or something. It has been brought to my attention too many times than I would have wanted to hear that I've become so fat. (See pictures here.) I think some changes ought to be made.

As most of the people I come to contact with everyday know, I've been abstaining from eating rice for the past month or so. No visible effects yet. That's a little slow for me. I'm planning to enrol in Fitness First this week or the next though earlier than planned. I was planning to go with Nikki or Laurence but maybe I should muster up enough courage to go by myself. I'm doing for myself anyway.

I thought I was strong. I thought my self-esteem will not be hurt from what people think of me. But I was wrong. Everytime someone I know from more than a year ago sees me, all I hear is "OMG, you're so fat!" "Ang taba taba mo na?" "Ano nangyari sa'yo?" And I'm tired of hearing it. It's time I took care of it.

And because slimming down will take some time even with the fastest time possible, I'm going to change my hair for a change that's immediate. Janice mentioned a salon she's been going to where though a little cheaper than the more famous salons its stylists are as professional. Now what that change is going to be, I'm not sure yet. Help me decide. Straight or curly? Redhead or brunette?

Leave a comment to vote. XD

Sad Kitty

I am a sad kitty today.

The day started innocently enough. I woke up at around 11, drank my usual cup of milky coffee, then took a bath.

I then decided to give a thank you gift to Jeff for being so nice last night. He wanted to have the Noghaltz installer for Ragnarok so that he can install it on his work PC. I have two copies of that installer so it should've been no problem right? Wrong! My sister lent them to someone. Both of them. So there was my quandary. What to do? Maybe I could burn all the contents of our RO folder to a CD. No, impossible. Size is more than 1GB. Hmm... Maybe I can just buy another copy from LU. It's only 15 minutes away from our house anyway if I took a taxi. So off I went to LU. A tricycle ride after, I was in C5 waiting for a cab. Thinking that only 15 minutes had passed I waited and waited and waited. Then I realized that my watch has stopped. >.<;;

Realizing I've waited longer than normal, I decided to wait for a cab in Market Market instead. I took a jeep, alighted a few meters from the mall, and walked to the taxi stand. Lo and behold. A queue of more than 50 people. >.<;;;

Fast forward to two millenia later, I finally arrived at the LU office, got the CDs from Janice. (Thanks sis! ^ 3^) It was already 2:30 and I had a decision to take. Do I go directly to the office or take the CDs to Jeff? If I go directly to the office, I won't be late but getting the CDs today won't mean a thing. If I take the CDs to Jeff my hard work will pay off. Guess what I chose. So Jeff was happy, I was happy. ^_^

I arrived at the office half an hour late. Good thing Nikki decided to work today even if she's still sick *huggles Nikki*. Not really a busy day. Not too many emails and no calls yet like yesterday. Had a Honeywell training which went well (could've been better though). Work interspersed with YM conversations with my friends and of course Jeff. So happy. ^_^

While I was on the training, around 6 PM, Jeff IMed that he'll be going home. I wasn't able to reply because of the training of course. Fully expecting him to be online again at around 7 PM, I was getting a little worried that he still isn't two hours later so I sent him a text message. Two hours after I sent the message, he finally replied. He's still with his boss... of all things, getting drunk. >.<;;;;; So I texted him back asked him to go home so that he'll be able to fetch me from work to which he replied that he will do it. Unfortunately, he changed his mind 20 minutes later. Y_Y

Well... nothing to do then but wait for tomorrow hoping that it'll be happier than today. =^_^= should be my face tomorrow morning. :3

23 on 23

I just turned 23 last Thursday. Thank you for everyone who greeted me on that special day. Some greetings even came before the day. Thanks so much!

The very first one to greet me was Ebet days before the exact date. Then Jeff at 7 pm on the 22nd. Nikki was the first to greet me on the exact date. Liezl greeted me through YM. Unfortunately, Jeff was not able to fetch me, so it was Marl who did. I treated him with coffee. And he gifted me with stories.

On the morning of my birthday, I went to UP to complete my "change of matriculation" (a tedious process to correct the stupidity of enrolling in a subject I thought I haven't yet taken which turned out I already did). I was going to have it signed by the dean but I was told that he wouldn't be there until 11 AM so I just left it there to not waste my time waiting. I went directly to Jeff's house to sleep.

I planned to spend my birthday as if it's no special than regular days but it was not meant to be.
We went to Tagaytay to celebrate, ate (thank you for the treat!) and had coffee. It was there that I completed the Starbucks stickers needed to claim the planner. Happy day!

(I will insert picture of planner here when I get the chance. XD)

Too bad I don't have a camera. I don't have any pictures to show for it. Only measly receipts from Carlo's Pizza and Starbucks. Jeff, Kio, Klip, thanks for the fun!

(I will insert picture of receipt here when I get the chance. XD)

I arrived late for work on Friday as I was determined to finish the change of matriculation process. Thank God that's done. Birthday greetings continued that day moreso because it was the day of the monthly company meeting. I was called on in the meeting and was greeted on the loudspeaker. It was so embarrassing! ._. But anyway, there was food and cake and though I know it was not especially for me it was FREE! XD

Birthday celebrations continued Saturday after my MA class (good thing my classmates didn't know I just celebrated my birthday). This time we celebrated with Janice, Donald, Ced, Kio (again), Magi, and AJ. We were planning to watch Casino Royale but the cinemas were already closed when we got there. So instead, we just ate at Max's to our heart's content then drank coffee (this time to complete the second round of stickers for Jeff XD) beside the bay. Rob unfortunately arrived late and was only able to catch us at that time (I think he ate some of the leftovers XD). We talked rowdily until around two.

Sunday was family day. I treated them to a KFC bucket meal because the Happy Feet tumblers were so cute. XD Then we all had coffee after. Jeff fetched me to drop off Magi and AJ in Bulacan. We ate chicken and Mulawin pan de sal and watched the really weird Willy Wonka movie Charlie and the Chocolate Factory. (Nope, didn't like it.)

Today, no more birthday celebrations but it's not over yet as Laurence (an officemate) and I decided to celebrate our birthdays together (his birthday's tomorrow). Why? To split the bill of course! XD

Caffeine overdose

I had 4 cups of coffee today. Two cups from the office coffee machine and two more from Starbucks. I'm feeling a little nauseaous but at the same time a little bit light headed. Surprisingly, I am not wide awake. I want to sleep.

EJ, Pat and I went to Eastwood early to have facials. Oh, my aching face. It felt and looked like I was attacked by an angry mob of starving vampire kitties. My nose is aching. My forehead is red. And my face is oily all over. Of course, my face is naturally oily but today it looks like you can harvest a bottle of it to use as a dip for Italianni bread.

Talking about food, let's jump to dinner. We're getting used to these high end eateries. Tonight we ate at Ebisu. I had Ebisu rolls and as always miso soup. The rolls are yummy. I never thought mushrooms could be that tasty.

I had coffee after dinner. I don't know if it's the coffee but although I feel like I'm scrimping over food, I felt really full returning to the office. Could it be that my diet is already working? If so, why am I still so fat? T_T I miss my old body. Y_Y

Jeff couldn't fetch me today because he again went to Bataan. He just got home around 8 so I told him not to force himself to do it anymore. I was going to ask my parents to fetch me but thought better of it. I asked Marl to fetch me instead to make good on his promise to treat me to something. Too bad he forgot. XD I gave him a slice of my birthday coffee, instead.

Humn... I miss Jeff already. I hope he hurries up and propose to me. =3

Anyway, I need to wake up early tomorrow and leave for UP early. I don't want to go there past 11 because it gets so hot. Hopefully, I should be able to finish the "change matriculation" process by tomorrow.

Sorry for the randomness. Hehe. As I've said at the start of my post, I want to sleep. So I will. Good night!