Drying my tears before they fall

I can feel the tears stinging my eyes but no I won't let them fall. I understand. You're not in the mood. What can I do? Times like this, I really wish I am a priestess. Able to teleport instantly to your side. Instantly warping to where you are. Upping my agility to run to you. But no, I'm just a silly girl. Sitting in front of my computer, typing. Hoping that you love me. Even if I'm not at your side.

Today, you were supposed to fetch me from work. Unfortunately you can't because you're sick. I wanted to go take care of you but I can't because I'm working. I had a plan. I was going to go to you right after work. I even enlisted the help of my friend to pose as my supervisor to tell my parents that work will be keeping me until 7. But you declined. You were worried I'd get in trouble. That taking taxis at midnight is not safe. That my parents will find out the deceit. That I'll be late for class tomorrow. And I was happy. You cared.

While waiting for my shift to end, a friend texted me and wished me happy birthday. There's still more than a week to go before my birthday. I was very happy with the greeting knowing fully well that we've not talked for a long time. I was actually getting worried he'd hold the grudge to grave. Or type my name on Ai Enma's website. He asked if we could talk. I agreed. It's the least I can do. Here's to hoping everything will go well at lunch on Monday.

I also talked with my best friend. She is in Japan. She was here for a while but I was not able to see her. I do regret that. I found out she is lonely. But I had to leave already. Time is up. Hope I get to talk with her soon.

I have class tomorrow morning. No more tears stinging my eyes. Success! I was able to suppress them. Tomorrow, I am going to see you and take care of you and make you feel better. I love you.